She’s already taken… She’s already taken me.

Wla akong idea if a simple advice will help me kung may mkakabasa lng nito. Kamoteng buhay 'to, o. D ko lng tlga alam ggawin ko e . Let me introduce you this 2 girls in my lyf. D 1st one is “Carrie”,6 yrs n kming mgkakilala. I courted her for almost 1 ½ yrs.nging mg-MU lng kmi pero d nging officially “kami”. She’s pretty, mabait & close sya s family q. I stopped courting her 2 yrs ago co’z of my studies(gs2 q kc,she’s free 2 choose hbang npapabayaan q sya dhil s pag-aaral q). I really luvd her & hnd biro hntayin sya for a long tym.But I’d nvr expctd n mgpo-fall aq 4 othrs.Now here comes d 2nd girl. Her name is “Dianne”, classm8 q in college. Mganda xa pero mas ngustuhan ko ung kakulitan nya, saya ksma. She’s the type of girl n mdaling mahalin. Akala q, d lng sya nppansin nun, un pla my heart says “wag mong pansinin yan, masasaktan k lng”. Eh d ko naiwasaan e, sobrang friendly kc e. Hayun, d q n npansin n in-luv n q s knya w/o any warnings. Nging close kmi ng sobra. I used to tell her n gus2 ko, aq mag-iingat sau (kya lng may krugtong n: “gngawa q to dhil friend kta”. Kc mdalas ngkkgust0 s knya ung ibang clssm8 & friends nmin s knya w/c is ayaw nyang ngyayari(pero pag gwapo, nku kinikilig p, kurutin q atay nun e!). Ayoko nmang icpn nya n sasahog p q. 2nd thing is, how can I make her feel safe kung malalaman nyang ung savior nya e may “pagnanasa” pla s knya? Kya I just did anything 4 her w/o asking for any(saya ko no, kababawan? ). So bgo plang mg-graduation, we exchanged letter, and gnamit q un pra gwing official ung friendship nmin, I’v got that special thoughts 4 her with matching drawing n may msg n “Forever Friends”. Gnawa q un pra MABURA n s icp q n somehow bka pwdng mging kmi. Until wla p ytang 1 month after that, cguro May 2004 kc election nun, I called her thru d phone, sympre chika2x lng,friends tayo eh. Kya lng may nsabi sya skin nun e & I nvr xpctd n mngggling p s knya. May dinescribe syang person s kin, mabait daw, caring, gentleman p. On may part, bka ma-aray n nman ako s maririnig ko. So w/o any idea, cge tnong aq kung cno un. She said; “… ikaw un e.” . P*t*ng i*a!!! Sandali lng! d p aq ready! d aq ng-ayos ngaun, d p aq ngtu-toothbrush, d p aq ngmu-mumog! D p aq nag - Ooops! I 4got,we’r over d phone nga pla. On my mind, ntaranta tlga aq, pero as she talked to me, d nya nhalata un dhil ngpatay-malisya aq. E ano nmang gs2ng nyong sabihin q? “Tlga? Gs2 mo q?E aq rin e. I luv u.” Cno nmang mniniwla nun? E aq nga 2ng panay presintang her friend dat she cud always count on, she cud always trust? Bka lumabas p n masyado nman aqng o42nista. Ang nsbi q lng is “Ows, tlga?” I confirmd it also thru txt a day after dat call. Sb nya, “Oo, crush kta, kc ang bait mo skin & I feel vry special kpag ksma kta.”. Then, sb q, special din xa s kin. Pero d q nsb n special xa s kin kc I love her. Ntkot kc aq e.Bka icpin nya o42nista aq.Like I said,dmi kc ngkkgs2 s knya. By that tym, may nanliligaw n pla s knya. Well, GWAPO daw so evrytym n mgkksama kming mgbbrkada,un lgi png-uusapan. Smahan p ng sulsol ng mga pnsan nya. Pra ako n2ng bnbastos ng hrapan.”Parang” lng nman, kc d nman nla alam e(pero ung sakit,nkooopow!araguy!d ko yta kya! ) She also asked us (“us” ha, ksma ako) qng sasagutin n b nya(Aba’t nanadya p yata !pra aqng snampal s mukha ). Until dumating ung bday nya. That was the tym n decided n aq. Ssbihin q n s knya lhat...Na mhal q n sya mtgal n. Na inspired aq bcoz of her.Na it just took tym pra mlaman nya kc msyadong mrming ngmamahal s knya. Na I’m jst here waiting 4 that hope. But evrything seems 2 b UNFORTUNATE pra s kin. Na-meet q na ung guy. D ako mgttka, gwapo nga tlga(kainis,nkkabakla k!) So hayun tukso d2, tukso dun,hbng knkilig p sya.Aray n nman !Pero sympre b-day nya, dpat msya sya. I even join s panunukso. Nkuha q png mgbiro even it just contribute a li’l 2 her happiness. D q n naibigay ung gift q. D q n rin nsb ung mga dpat nyang mlaman.

After that, wala na, wala na, wala na, wala na, wala na….

Wala n qng plano. Wala n qng inicp. Prang wala ng kwenta ang BUHAY(nakhooomPootah! lalim) ya, that’s true.un ung mga nramdaman q that tym. Cge, since I don’t have the ryt 2 give u up, d n lng aq gglaw. I will make it easier 4 u 2 decide. D n lng aq sasahog(wow!ang kapal ng dating q.feeling q nman isa aqng npkalaking hindrance s kanila) basta, Bhla kayo s buhay nyo! Just promise me n mgging msaya k(kung hnd, ggwin qng punchin’ bag yang throat mo)

E2, after almost 2 yrs, zero p rin aq. “Sila” p rin yta hnggang ngaun. I think d n q pwdng bmlik p s knya. Kc it was like a legend n may ngyring somethn romantic s aming dlwa. Wla kc nkaalam. Sagwa nman if I will open it up ngaun lng.

C “Carrie”, d 1st girl I mentioned,d q mgwang balikan. Ayokong gwing panakip butas ung tao. She doesn’t deserve it. Mnhal q rin ung tao, of course. Pero wla p rin aqng especial n nrrmdman pra knya ngaun. Ng-hope aq n mggng good friends kmi. Kya lng may problema….

Weeks ago,ngkta kmi kc ngptulong syng mgpgwa ng project. After that, we got tym 2 talk. Ngng very cm4tble syang ikwen2 n ngkroon sya ng boyfriends & ok lng s kin un. So I xpected na it’s ok lng s knya f ikwen2 q rin ung about s akin. I told her about “Dianne” then bgla syang nwalan ng gana kumain(nsa Jolibee Balagtas, Bulacan kc kmi nun). Ngpadaplis p. Bumira b nman ng “naranasan mo n b ung, kumakain k,tpos may nreceive kang msamang balita, 4 exmple,nabalitaan mong ung BF mo may ksamng iba?”. Kelangan b tlgang “kumakain” ung gven situation? N-gets q agad. I askd her qng ndsappoint q sya. She agreed. Nku, konsensya q p,problemado p nman ung tao dat tym, sumali p aq. Ngaun, pg ngttxt sya, d q snsgot, wag lng syang umasa kya lng feeling q,ang sma-sama q. D p rin aq happy kc nhhirapan aqng kalimutan c “Dianne” kc mhrap mgpktang pag-iwas s knya(“friends” nga dpat d b?”).

Ngaun, e'to ako't broken hearted. Still tryn' to move on pero sobrang hirap. Taken na kc "Diane" e and she already taken my heart away.

The Day You Said Goodnight

by Hale

Take me as you are

Push me off the road

the sadness, I need this time

to be with you

I'm freezing in the sun

I'm burning in the rain

The silence I'm screaming,

Calling out your name

And i do reside in your heat

that puts up the fire with me and find

Yeah you'll lose the side of your circles

That's what i'll do

if we say goodbye

To be is all i gotta be

And all that i see

And all that i need this time

To me the life you gave me

The day you said goodnight.

The calmness in your face

That I see through the night

The warmth of your light

is pressing unto us

You didn't ask me why

I never would have known

oblivion is falling down

And i do reside in your light

Put out the fire with me and find

Yeah you'll lose the side of your circles

That's what i'll do if we say goodbye

To be is all i gotta be

And all that i see

And all that i need this time

To me the life you gave me

The day you said goodnight.

If you could only know me

like your prayers at night

Then everything between you and me

will be alright.

To be is all i gotta be

And all that i see

And all that i need this time

To me the life you gave me

The day you said goodnight.

She's already taken,

she's already taken

she's already taken me

she's already taken,

she's already taken me

The day you said goodnight