After 2 long years, Finally, nasabi ko rin...

After mtgal n pnanahimik , nsabi ko rin s knya. 2 YEARS ko din itinago 'to. It's 'bout "Diane" . Bgla xa ngtxt s kin last week, nngangamusta. I duno wat kind of approach ang ggwin q, sinungitan q n nga e.Buti n lng naubos load q kc bka nsungitan ko tlga xa.Then, dis week, I tried 2 reach her.d xa nkpgreply so tnwagan q n.D ko natiis n i-treat wat I treat her b4, bniro-biro q xa, as usual. Na-touch daw xa dhil tnwagan q p xa. Last nyt, tnxt q ulit xa, she opened up, tnanong nya qng musta n luvlyf q. I said, ZERO p rin and xa, wla n raw cla ng BF nya.

Pwede!!!

Msyado xang ngtanong so d q n npigilan sarili ko :

Me:Mustasa?

Diane: kei nman,msta b luvlyf ntin dyan,hv u finaly found d 1?

Me: Aray!

Diane:Aq, Zero e.

Me: So wala n kayo?

Diane:wla n. ung 1 yr & 9 months nmin, ng-end up lng s wla.

Me: e d umiyak k n nman?

Diane:2 b honest, hindi, sayang luha q s knya.

Me:E bat seryoso ata aura mo ngayon? hv u recverd yet?

Diane:Oo, nman, aq p.

Me:So gs2 mong icom4t kta?

Diane:as if nmn ggwin mo. e bka asarin mo p aq e.E ba't nga pla kw wla p rin?phikan k cguro no? swerte mggng GF mo sau.lhat kc nsau n.

Me:Magaling k p rin mng-uto:-l

Diane: No,its true.frend mo q d b? Hndi kta inuuto promiz,cnsb q lng ung 22o,pno k mggng msaya qng d k gmgwa ng way pra mhanap xa db? helooooo!ang lgay b e,girl p mnliligaw sau

Me:Un n nga e, d q xa pwdng ligawan!

Diane:n y?4 wat rison?

Me:Ang labo tlga akala q,everythin wil b fine after I resisted not 2 c or talk 2 her for months jst 2 let her b happy w/ her BF. Akala q, Iv already recoverd from the pain pero hina-haunt p rin aq ng traumatic past q. Kung pwde q lng xang awayin, gnawa q n pero d q xa ganun kdali saktan.

Diane:gno b k-im4tant yang girl n yan s mundo at bkit d xa pwedeng ligawan ng frend q?gs2 mo awayin ntin?

Me:D q xa pwdng ligawan dhil s npkwalang kwentang “Rules of friendship”

Diane: bkit nman? Oi, wg k ngang mgself pity, Okey, I'm hir.

Me:Mamamatay n nga aq d2 kakatry of evrythin jst 2 improve myself pero I hvnt change.Bkit p aq mgpapakita?

Diane:lam mo,u dnt hv 2 prov anything. jst b urself.

Me: Wow! Para kng c Joe ‘D mango huh?As if nmn u understand?

Diane:ano nman akala mo s kin? TANGA? o nga pla, ur smarter dan me.

Me:Bat gnyan k?

Diane:Kw kya. u dont trust me.kya nman ktng 2lungan ah.

Me:It’s not dat I don’t trust u . it’s not also bcoz iniicp q n d mo kyang umintindi?tanungin nga kta ulit?naiintindihan mo b tlga problema q?Do u think der’s a solution?F u’l say “YES” ,den I’l trust u.Ano? kaya mo b aqng 2lungan?Naiintindihan mo b tlga aq?

Diane:yes, I understand u.

Me:Oke.pero qng naiintindihan mo nga q, BAKIT HINDI PWEDENG MAGING “TAYO”

Diane:wat?wat do u mean?

Me:O, bat bgla kng natameme?Akala q b, u understand me. Binigay q lng nman ung sitwasyon q & u agreed na u understand. D b we’r in d same situation? We’r frends dat’s y d pwdng mging “tayo”. Ba’t d k agad mkpgbgay ng advise? Speechless? Duno wat 2 say?

Diane:bkit d mo agad cnbi s kin?kelan p nging hndrance ang frendship?

Me:D aq npagod mgmhal. Pero pgod n q mgpretend, n masaya aq khit hindi.n im happy 4 d 1 hus very spcl 2 me even it really hurts 2 know n msaya xa s iba. N ok lng s kin n d q xa mkita but deep inside, how I wish I cud c or talk 2 her d same way b4.Ngayon, ano advise mo?

Diane:d q alam ssbhin ko e, since wen?.....

After dat, bgla xang 2mawag. I answered her call, d aq mkpagsalita. 2matawa p xa.Flattered daw xa kc xa ung npili ko. Cnb nya rin n mtagal n xang ngdududa s treatment q s knya. Then,bglang nputol ang linya. (wla n cgurong load).D n xa ngtxt.

Ewan q mamaya . I duno what will happen next. Maybe I should go for the feeling na matagal ko nang kinimkim, but I knew, hindi ganun kadali, I want to help heal her broken HEART.

but How... How... How... How?

"TRUE"

Ryan Cabrera

I wont talk

I wont breathe

I wont move till you finally see

That you belong with me

You might think

I dont look

But deep inside

In the corner of my mind

Im attached to you

Im weak

Its true

Cuz im afraid to know the answer

Do you want me too?

Cuz my heart keeps falling faster

I've waited all my life

To cross this line

To the only thing thats true

So I will not hide

Its time to try

Anything to be with you

All my life I've waited

This is true

You dont know what you do

Everytime you walk into the room

Im afraid to move

Im weakIts true

Im just scared to know the ending

Do you see me too?

Do you even know u met me?

I've waited all my life to cross this line

To the only thing thats true

So I will not hide

Its time to try anything to be with you

All my life I've waited
This is true

I know when I go

ill be on my way to you

The way thats true

I've waited all my life to cross this line

To the only thing thats true

So I will not hide

Its time to try anything to be with you

All my life I've waited
This is true