How can I tell her?

Ako n yata ang pinaka hopeless at pinaka stupidong tao s mundo (tsk!tsk!tsk!).

Waaaahhhh! Ba’t ba npkakomplikado ng sitwasyon ko ngayon?

May mahal ka nga,d mo nman alam kung hndi p pwede o hindi tlga pwede kc nga KAIBIGAN mo xa. May iba nmang ngmamahal sa’yo, pero d mo nman mgawang mhalin kc alam mong mas mhal mo ang kaibigan mo.

“CARRIE”, minahal din nman kta and hindi biro n ligawan ka for 1 ½ yrs dati. Khit n hnggang mutual understanding lng ang nging relationship ntin, I treasured every moment n mgkasama tayo. Ngayon, everything has changed, ngkaroon k ng maraming boyfriends and aq, e2 tuliro’t in luv p rin s kaibigan ko. I didn’t xpcted n may nraramdaman k p pla s kin hnggang ngayon. Sinabi ko n nga sa’yo lhat last year tungkol s "KANYA" d b? I’m jst hoping na we will bcum gud frnds.Akala ko naintindihan mo na q, pero ba’t ganon? You’re still hoping?

“DIANE”, we been gud frnds since college days. Malaki'ng ngbago s kin nung nksama kta, u inspired and touched my lyf as well as the others. Dahil nga masyado nang natural n maraming ngmamahal sa’yo, d man lang aq mksama s mga choices mo. Tinago q 2 4 a long tym pra mprotektahan kta dhil pag umamin aq, d k nman ppyag d b? Ngkaroon k ng boyfriend w/c broke my heart 2 yrs ago. I tried 2 move on and I saw “Carrie” as 1 of the way 2 move on. Pero d pla kaya ng konsensya q, d ko pla kayang manggamit dhil msyado akong aware s 22ong nrrmdaman ko. Ngayon, after 2 yrs, wla n kayo ng BF mo, bkit BROKEN HEARTED p rin aq coz of u?

E ANONG PROBLEMA DON?

Si “CARRIE”, single, mgnda, available at kulang n lng yata e ligawan ko xa ulit para mging officially “kami”. Kaya lng, there’s sumthin she needs know. I really have to tell her…… wlang ngbago s mga sinabi q. C “Diane” p rin ang mhal q. As I’v said, ayaw ktang msaktan at umasa p that’s why I don’t know where, when and how will I start? I jst want 2 b honest w/ u. Ayoko lng dumating s point n ikaw nga ksama q pero iba nman ang hanap q. Even evrytym u hold my hand, I felt so guilty instead because I feel no “spark” anymore…wla n tlaga qng mramdaman.

Si “DIANE”, I’m still tryn 2 find a reason why I’m still here 4 u khit mnsan, doin things jst 4 u w/o asking 4 any as return is “exhausting”, and very tiring. Ngaun, I already realized, un pla tlga ung essence of “loving in spite of everything”. In spite of the fact that we’re jst friends, that I’m not the ideal guy for u, that no one can even imagine that there’l be any possibility n “mging tayo”. Alam kong msakit p rn para sa’yo ung break up nyo ng BF mo. I’m jst tryn 2 help u heal it and bring ur confdnce back. I knew u’r not yet ready 2 luv again kc u jst consider it as “sakit lng ng ulo(or puso, maybe)”. So eto aq ngaun, tryn 2 show u that I’m happy to jst make u realize “hindi p katapusan ng mundo” and tryn to be a “real friend” jst to make u feel that “u’r not alone”.

Kailangan q lng itago ‘to…

kailangan q lng kimkimin ‘to…

‘tong nararamdaman ko…

wag lng madagdagan ya’ng “kamoteng” sakit ng ulo mo:-(